“Do what you can, where you are, with what you have.” — Teddy Roosevelt
For the first time in a long time, I feel absolutely useless, borderline worthless.
Not because I lost my job, thanks to #covid19. But more because, for the first time in a very long time, I feel like I’ve lost my purpose.
There’s no reason to wake up early because there’s nowhere I have to hurry to. Though I seem to wake up easier and earlier than before.
There’s no reason to shower and have breakfast because I can literally lounge at home in my P.J. all day long. But I would go ahead and have a fulfilling shower with music blaring and either enjoy a healthy shake or an easy meal for breakfast anyway.
There’s no reason to even sit in front of the computer for so many hours a day because there’s no work to be done, and yet here I am.
I don’t feel sorry for myself, I can’t say I do (though it might sound like I do just now).
I think I’m just brooding for the sake of brooding. I don’t see why I shouldn’t allow myself to do so just for a little bit only to get it out of my system.
But I already know what I have to do and what I can do.
I refreshed my freelance accounts (and I have multiple) and started searching for freelance gigs online.
I started planning and refreshing my personal website into more than just a place where I dump my stories and exploits.
I’ve enrolled myself in a few courses to make sure I come out of this better than I went in.
I refreshed my resume (after years of leaving it untouched) and brushed up my cover letter writing skills. I started sending out an application to a couple of places even if it’s probably going to take some time before I hear anything from anyone. But that’s fine.
Take Away
This is an unprecedented crisis and everyone is going through it in their own way. It’s ok to not be able to empathize with others, but please be sympathetic to their emotions and stresses.
Remember to leave the uncontrollable off the table and work with what you have, from wherever you are, however you can, today.
#stayhomestayhealthy
